“I do my thing and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it’s beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped.”—Fritz Perls’s ”Gestalt Prayer” (via angiebby88)
Lastly, my resolution. There’s nothing I specifically would like to declare as my resolution. All I can hope for is to be a better person and improve with each day. To continue learning, loving, and living every moment I spend alive with every breath that I take.
7. A photo of yourself from the beginning of this year
Not exactly from the beginning of this year, but close enough. This was a year ago when I spent Christmas with my cousins in California. I seriously miss these people and am so thankful to have them as a part of my family.
So whereeee to begin? Like I’ve said before, had you not initiated that first conversation over Facebook chat (haha…) we most likely wouldn’t have the kind of relationship we have now. And I cannot be any more thankful that you did. I am sorry though for partially ignoring you when Susie had first introduced you to me a month beforehand at Latitude…that wasn’t exactly the ideal setting to get to know someone. We’ve been through A LOT. So much that no one could ever understand besides us, of course. We’ve had our ups and downs, laughs and cries, fights and forgiveness, happiness and sadness. I honestly wonder if there’s any part of the spectrum that we have yet to cover. However, going through all these things with you have led us to develop a kind of relationship I probably haven’t had with anyone. I’ve only known you for six months and yet, I feel like I’ve known you for at least years. I’ve never met anyone like you before: someone who’s so stubborn, closed off, unexpressive, negative…but at the same time sensitive, witty, strange, charming, constantly submerged in deep thoughts. Despite all those times that you had pushed me away or ignored me to the point where everyone told me to basically just screw you and move on, I couldn’t for some reason. I, for some reason, just couldn’t abandon you even if that meant I would continue getting hurt. It wasn’t because of sympathy, but rather I felt like you had been alone for the longest time. I wanted to be that light that would slowly bring you out of the darkness that you had hidden yourself in for so long. I’m not exactly sure when I started to care about you so much but as time went on, my feelings only grew even more. We did make a lot of mistakes and things only seemed to become more complicated as our relationship progressed. It wasn’t just your fault, it wasn’t just mine. We’re both on two different paths right now and I’m finally accepting that ultimately, the time just isn’t right for us at the moment. But I am still so extremely thankful that we have each other in our lives. I’m happy that I can call you my best friend and that you can call me yours. I can only hope for the best between us in the future, but for now I am going to be happy with just myself. I hope that you can have the kind of happiness that you deserve. I’ll always be here for you. You know that I’m only a text, phone call, or an occasional drive away. I love you.